Zomg..a sick-induced fic!!

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Title: WHITE PRAYER
Rating: er...PG...maybe PG-13
Summary: And cry, with love We're sure to forget, That the world which was dyed grey isn't real, Even if we keep sleeping and sleeping, morning doesn't come, so. Now, with this hand, let's turn the key
Warnings: Really...uh angst, and abuse, though not too graphic.

 

Okay, so I decided to take a break from my UruhaxGreg crack fic and actually write something serious...

So...let's get started eh?

Disclaimer: I don't own CSI. I also don't own WHITE PRAYER alice nine does...

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WHITE PRAYER

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so many lies, so much pain. miminari wa tomaranai
hitori no yoru no oto ga shizuka de
searching for Raison d’etre. hakushi no hitonami ni
gokusai no penki wo mochi aruku

so many lies, so much pain. The ringing in my ears doesn't stop
The sounds of a lonely night reside in silence
searching for Raison d'etre. In the blank sheet of humanity
Carrying the most richly-coloured paint, I walk

Everyday, for the past two and a half years, his relationship had been the same.

He'd come home from work, and immediately be ordered to go to their bedroom, where he'd then be tied down, face down, to the bed.

Of course, what happened after that varied from each day, depending on what the other was feeling.

Some days, when he felt generous, they'd skip straight to the sex, no foreplay, no preparation.

Other days, and mostly what happened, he would be tied there for hours, in the dark, even if the other knew his fear of dark. Then the door would creak open, and soft footsteps would echo in the room. Sometimes, Greg thought that the other was going to untie him...but when he felt the familiar feel of a leather belt, and smelt the unmistakable smell of alcohol, he knew what was coming.

At these times, he wished the other would just get over with it.

itsukaraka nani mo kanjinaku natta

Since when did I stop feeling anything?

He didn't exactly know when he stopped caring, and responding to the pain that was bestowed upon him daily, it just did...

A numb sensations always covered his body during those times...

...he wasn't sure what it was...but it felt so good.

And cry, with love wasureteru hazu sa
guree ni somatta sekai ga riaru janai to
nemutte mo nemutte mo asa wa konai kara
ima kono te de kagi wo akeyou

And cry, with love We're sure to forget
That the world which was dyed grey isn't real
Even if we keep sleeping and sleeping, morning doesn't come, so
Now, with this hand, let's turn the key

Sometimes, Greg wondered why he was even in this relationship. It wasn't like he had emotional attachment to it.

Though the fact that the other beat him, made him feel like he was wanted.

He couldn't get any better lover either.

He had been told that numerous times, when he was curled up in a corner crying because the other had hit him too hard, or when he threatened to leave, but the words, “who are you going to go to?” took the freedom away from him.

They were right, who wanted a reject lab rat, CSI-wannabe anyway?

black or white, jewel or stone.
muryokusa ga itoshikute
muryoku nara dareka wo motomeru kara
Please save me, with a white rose. itami wo wakeaeru,
sou dekiru tsuyosa ga hoshii

black or white, jewel or stone.
Helplessness is endearing
Because if you're helpless, you can wish for someone
Please save me, with a white rose. The pain can be shared,
I want the strength to be able to do that

At night, when he lie on the couch, since his lover didn't want him in the bedroom tonight, he wondered if maybe that he could find someone better, if maybe someone was willing to take him, save him from this hell that he lived now. Maybe even mend what ever was left of his already broken heart.

The small LCD light of his phone illuminated the room, he'd received a text message.

'Hey G,

I was thinkin' maybe me and you could go get something to eat?

Please? I miss talkin to ya.'

Greg smiled, nodding his head to what ever invisible force was present. Spending the day with Nick would help a lot.

Getting up, he straightened his shirt out and grabbed a piece of paper, scribbling down a quick note to his sleeping lover and leaving the apartment.

"kitaisuru koto wo wasureta kimi e"

“To you, who has forgotten what you were anticipating"

He met up with Nick at the diner that they usually eat at during shift, not that far from his apartment, so he could walk, and not raise suspicion with his lover. Upon arriving, the other opened the door for him and led him to a booth near the back. Nick even allowed him to order whatever he wanted, and he didn't have to pay for it either.

As he ate, he couldn't help but think that this was more than his lover had ever done for him.

And cry, with love dakara tsutaetai
kanashii uta mo kesshite mudajanai to
nemutte mo nemutte mo asa wa konai kara
ima kono te de kagi wo akeyou


And cry, with love So I want to tell you
Even the sad songs are never useless
Even if we keep sleeping and sleeping, morning doesn't come, so
Now, with this hand, let's turn the key

As the day progressed on, he really didn't want to leave Nick's comforting presence. The other made him feel more wanted than he had felt in a long time.

Though, when Nick announced that he had to work later and needed to get some sleep, they started towards Nick's truck, and both got in.

As they neared the diner, Greg told Nick to stop there, he could walk back, but Nick teasingly replied back that he couldn't let his date walk alone. So he took him back to the apartment complex.

Of course, what surprised Greg more, was when Nick got out of the truck with him, insisting on walking him to his apartment.

Greg, couldn't deny Nick of what he wanted, so he allowed the older man to lead him.

When they reached the door, Greg turned to Nick, but never got to say anything, as Nick had leaned down and pressed his lips to Greg's.

They stood like that for a moment, Greg wanting to give in to the feeling of Nick's lips on his, but couldn't, so he pushed the taller away shaking his head, “I can't.” and went inside.

doredake iro wo kasanete mo
somaru koto no nai ore de iyou

No matter how much the colours pile up
I'll stay the way I am, undyed

Luck, seemed to not be on Greg's side today, because as soon as he walked in, he was slammed against the wall.

His lover's face up in his, blue eyes flaring, “What was that?” he asked lowly, hand coming to wrap around Greg's neck.

“It was nothing...an accident...honest...”

His hand tightened, “Really? You seemed to enjoy it. I bet you've even let him fuck you before haven't you?”

“No!” Greg felt his throat close.

The other's face was red, “What did I tell you about lying to me? Don't you remember what happened last time?”

Greg struggled, “I didn't mean to...please..let me go...”

“What makes you think you deserve to be let free? I bet you've cheated on me.”

He shook his head, “I haven't!”

“You're a liar. I can tell it in your face. You'd spread your legs for anyone, whore.”

Tears came to his eyes, “Please...let me go...I won't do it again...I promise...”

The grip on his throat loosened for a moment, then tightened again as something was shoved in his face.

A knife.

He struggled harder.

“Now, now, unless you want this to go into your neck I suggest you-”

A loud bang interrupted him, “This is the police! Open the door!”

The other's blue eyes widened, “Shit. I knew your little cop buddies would come to your rescue.” he let go of Greg and dropped the knife, running to the bedroom, where there was a fire escape.

And cry, with love wasureteru hazu sa
guree ni somatta sekai ga riaru janai to
nemutte mo nemutte mo asa wa konai kara
ima kono te de kagi wo akeyou

And cry, with love We're sure to forget
That the world which was dyed grey isn't real
Even if we keep sleeping and sleeping, morning doesn't come, so
Now, with this hand, let's turn the key

A loud bang echoed through the apartment again before the call of the police.

“Open the door! If not we'll be forced to ram it down!”

Almost immediately after, the door was rammed open, police running into the apartment, guns drawn.

Greg shrunk back as he saw the shadows run over the walls, his mind telling him that his lover was coming back.

“Greg?”

Someone fell down beside him, pulling him towards a body.

He recognized the feel...it was Nick...he was here.

“Ni..ck?” he whispered, voice hoarse, as he tried to look up.

He felt himself being lifted from the ground bridal style, and being placed onto a stretcher.

Nick's worried brown eyes peered into his own as he walked beside the now moving stretcher.

A loud noise brought their attention from each other.

Greg recognized the sound of his now ex-lover's voice as the police herded him into the back of the car.

He looked back up at Nick, “Will...he...?”

Nodding, Nick grabbed his hand, “Yeah. He will. You don't have to worry about him anymore G. I promise.”

Even if Greg was being carried away to the hospital, and his lungs felt as if they were going to burst, an odd warmth filled him...

...no one had ever promised him anything.

“Thank...you...”

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So, a few notes on this.

In the first verse the "Raison d'être" is French for "reason to be" just to let all you non-French savvy people know.

Also, when Shou wrote this, I really doubt that this is what he had in mind for the song...so yeah.

So,please tell me what you think! 

Comments

[abbynormalitis.livejournal.com]

D'aw. Usually I protest the Greg-in-an-abusive-relationship scenario, just because i think he's to independent for that but somehow this makes sense. Kinda embarrassing the cops he worked with would find him in this situation. Poor Baby <3

And they're J-rock so really you get double points for that :P I like this song. It fits the situation well, and you managed to tell us what it means along with the pretty Japanese, without making us go look at the lyrics ourselves. Yes, I'm lazy, but I did it anyway to hear the song so..

[death-note13.livejournal.com]

...I am a messed up child sometimes XD

Yeah, Greg is too independant for it...but I never said that it was a 'zomg love' relationship...

Yeah, it is embarrassing...kinda embarrassing that Nick saw him too.

Jrock, is my love...and is what I usually use to write song-fics with. Though...thanks to a certain "K" in KAT-TUN *cough Kame*cough* I'll probably be using Jpop songs too...cause I'm starting to get back into it.

WHITE PRAYER...is so awesome Alice Nine...is so awesome XD Though...not as awesome as GazettE that it.

You're not lazy, I hate to do that too...having to look up the translation just to understand it...

*points at your icon* OMG....Invader Zim! I use to watch that all da time yo...