Returning with the same info and a link, basically

[boy-ish.livejournal.com]

Title: An Intimate Position
Author: Bry
Spoilers: Nothing specific, but set about early/mid season 3.
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Nick/Greg
Summary: Nick and Greg do it.
Author's Note: This is my first attempt at Nick/Greg, and I'm really nervous sharing it. I am otherwise a Backstreet (Nick/Kevin) writer, and am attempting another pairing that has taken me. If I'm basically well-received, I hope to do more (and, ya know, get better with them). So feedback is much appreciated, but please be gentle. I promise I'm not perfect. Otherwise, I hope you'll find it at least basically satisfying.

An Intimate Position

Comments

[loozy.livejournal.com]

Hm.
I like it.
I thought it was a pretty good insight into Nick's character, esepecially that he probably really would be like that.

Is there any more for that story?

[boy-ish.livejournal.com]

No. Sorry, guess I should have done "The end" or something. Heh. Unless you meant, like continuation-ish plans, where something more could come of it, and at this point I say no.

Thank you; I'm very appreciative of your response.

Re: ♥ ♥ ♥

[boy-ish.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I feel so much better now. You have no idea how worried I was. I normally can have a couple people read my stuff (in a private forum) before releasing it to such a larger audience, but, alas, they aren't around, nor are they all too much up on the CSI stuff. So, yeah, I was coming in entirely exposed.

[mistressmerr.livejournal.com]

What an odd point of view. Second person, past tense. That worried me a little starting it, but you handled it very impressively. Kudos.

Also, for a first foray, spot-on characterizations. All in all? Dude. That rocked. I am TOTALLY looking forward to anything you put out in the future.

[boy-ish.livejournal.com]

I was actually kind of toying with changing the POV after the first couple pages were written (as 2nd person is just how it'd begun), but nothing else seemed to fit. I'm glad you thought it worked. I appreciate your feedback :)

[amazonqueenkate.livejournal.com]

I was very impressed. I liked the narration - it was smooth and vivid - and I thought both characters were very well done. It's cute, too, in small ways.

Oh, Greg, how I <3 thee.

[boy-ish.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I'm very pleased with your take of it. I was hoping it could be perceived as well.

[stinkymonz.livejournal.com]

This was an interesting fic. I haven't seen a fic where Greg had to try and actively convince Nick into submission. The art of seduction, I'd say.

[boy-ish.livejournal.com]

You know, that was part of my problem with writing the story. Well, not a problem, so much as wanting to play off what I see as almost a natural submission to Nick (Greg's eyes always seem softer around him), especially when I love dom/sub-ish relationships in the first place (in other words, I'd like to see Nick in charge, and Greg wooed/as the novice of some sort). It's something I wanted to play with as I discovered them more. But it just gives me more to work with later on.

Thanks for your reply :)

[shacky20.livejournal.com]

Different take, but I liked it. Not really sure if/where the thing is going. I like the was you portrayed Greg, more sure of himself, teaching Nick it was ok to just feel for awhile. I would kind of like to see a sequel to this, maybe from Nick's POV, to see if he changed his mind, or maybe take the angst route and decide it wasn't for him. I really liked this exchanged and thinks it wraps of the piece in a nutshell
“You want me to leave?”
“No, I just…it’s kind of weird.”
“What, after all that, this is too intimate for you?”
“No, I’m just…it’s new to me. You’re not a woman. It’s…I don’t know.”
“That doesn’t mean you can’t be affectionate with me. You cared enough to fuck me.”

Shows Nick's insecurity with it and maybe his regret, and would like to read on to see if he has any.

[boy-ish.livejournal.com]

Hmm...I'll have to think about this some more. It could be fun to do a sort of continuation from Nick's POV. We'll have to see what happens. Thanks :)

[xris-xrossd.livejournal.com]

I loved it. There haven't been a ton of fics that left me absolutely panting at the end of it, so consider yours as being a benefactor of this dubious honour. Wonderful portrayal of the characters, and though the voice you wrote in was somewhat confusing at first, you definitely got into it by the end. Excellent job!

Keep Writing!

X

[boy-ish.livejournal.com]

Well, that's the point of a visual (or PWP, as it goes), so I'm glad it worked for you, lol. Thanks for your thoughts :)

[madasarabbit.livejournal.com]

I really liked this. Good job, hope you write more CSI fics, cause Nick/Greg is my OTP.

Best. Line. Ever.
“Nick, you know not a day goes by when Grissom doesn’t look at me like I’m nuts. Seriously, even when I’m at home, he sends me emails, pictures of him giving me that face.”
That was SO funny.

[boy-ish.livejournal.com]

I'm so glad you thought that! I didn't know how anybody would take it. Thank you :)

[neviditelny.livejournal.com]

Now I'm confused. You've gotten quite a few very positive comments about your work, and yet you're apologizing for attempting? Why? I read your piece, and I did like it. I'm a fan of the inexperienced Nick/experienced Greg. All the positive comments you received are true; you wrote well. So why did you take it down?

[boy-ish.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. I know it's the asshole thing to do to take it down, but my confidence was shattered and I just can't bare to leave it up there right now. It's like an open wound; I just can't leave it exposed. Maybe if it 'heals' but I can't say right now.

[crycrywolf.livejournal.com]

but I thought all the comments were possitive?

if it helps any, I was one of the many who liked it. but I wont argue with you to put it back up, its your decision.

[iamtheenemy.livejournal.com]

I'm not seeing any negative comments either.

[boy-ish.livejournal.com]

Well, as I've said elsewhere, the nicest way of saying "that sucked" is to say nothing at all. The next best way, however, is email.

As I said in my author's note, I was extremely sensitive/nervous about it, because I *know* there are certainly problems with it. Problems I'd hope to overcome if I continued working with them. Where I just needed to know that *some* people could like it, that maybe I was going in the right direction. And where somebody then had to encourage my already present unease. To magnify my already critical view, and to confirm my negative perceptions beyond even what I had considered.

But I'm not so sensitive about said person's criticisms anymore, because I don't respect her (as she continued to speak, and prove her words worthless). Still, my fear (however irrational some may deem it--I have social anxiety so many of my worries are irrational, despite my knowing it) remains in that I worry others I respect, or at least want to be respected by, will think the same as her. Even if they never state it.

It’s up on my website, though, because I know few will read it there (and if they do, they either don’t know the characters, or won’t have a specific way they think they should be portrayed to then be pissed off if they aren’t to their specific perception), and nobody will reply to it. Not sure if I can work myself up to editing this thread to include a link and the specific information, though. But I still feel bad about removing it, especially since people probably won’t trust me to leave it there if I try again with another story.

[geekwriter143.livejournal.com]

Wow. Just to see what all the ruckus was about I went to your site and read the story, and wow. I loved it. Sure, there might be a couple things here and there you could brush up--but there always is in any story.

I loved the second person past tense. I was a little wary the first few sentences, but then I just got into it and it really worked well. I could keep going on about the things I liked about your work (including some amazing sentences and images that I'm jealous I didn't think of first), but instead I think I'll talk about you taking it down.

Not that I'm going to bitch about it. I'm a writer, too, and I know exactly how naked posing something you're not totally sure about can make you feel, so if taking it down helped to calm the anxiety, it was the right thing to do (I've also got social anxiety with panic, so I get that, too).

I don't know if a pep talk will work at all, and honestly a lot of it is just me being selfish because I want you to write more Nick/Greg, but I'd kick myself if I didn't try.

Even with as small as the Nick/Greg fandom is, there's still some bitchiness in it. However, anyone who doesn't have the guts to tell you what they think in a public forum and instead chooses to insult your work (and, by extension, you) in a private email doesn't deserve your attention. You posted this on livejournal, and the way to respond to posts on livejournal is to post comments that everyone can read. Apparently the girl who emailed you was too pussy to do that--probably because she knew she was just being a petty, ridiculous bitch and that the other people who read her comment would smack her down and come to your defense.

It would really be a shame if you gave in to her pettiness and the anxiety, because you're a wonderful writer. I've never read popslash before, but based on this story you wrote I might go check the rest of your site out later because I like the way you write. The fandom always needs new writers, especially ones that are willing to take risks. That's the only way any of us ever get any better, after all.

And you might not believe me, but I'm telling the truth when I say that the best way to respond to rude emails is to laugh, roll your eyes, think, "Fuck you, stupid bitch," and hit the delete key. Because the people who send them are so not worth your time.

[boy-ish.livejournal.com]

Wow, thank you for that.

And I'm really not sure how I feel about her/it/all anymore. I mean, a lot of it was my being overly sensitive, and although I know she didn't mean any of it in a specifically malicious way, I wouldn't have called it useful criticism (it could have been, but it went beyond that, and that's what hurt me). If it was a flat-out flame, it certainly would have been easier to remove myself from. I don't blame her, and I actually appreciate her stating this in email (she doesn't have a LJ, so it would have been anonymous, anyway), because if I'm going to feel humiliated, it might as well be behind closed-doors.

I don't know, like I was kinda saying, I was a house of cards and she was the breath that blew it over, regardless of intent, I suppose. And so it'll take a little time to build it back up, but how strong a foundation it'll have still remains up in the air. I'll certainly take your words into account, though, and they're much appreciated.

(I seriously don't know what it is with me and all these analogies lately).