Fic: Realisation

[gregisamazing.livejournal.com]

Title: Realisation
Rating: PG
Summary: When they realise just what is going on, no one stops and fights to save it. [Drabble of 633 words]
Notes: It's been sat on my desk collecting dust. I didn't want to post it because I didn't believe what I'd written for a while, but now... It's the right time.

He’s ready; it was now or never. The pain and frustration had haunted him right from the beginning- never leaving his side after that moment. The moment when they both realised it was evolving into something more than it should be…

The other looks on, desperate to find something-anything- that will make him stay. But for once words are far beyond him, his mouth opens but no words escape. He is just stood there, helplessly, unable to alter the course of events. He can do more than look on as the events unfurl.

It’s difficult to fight for something they both want; neither sure how they would make this work now. It’s different to how it started; back then there weren’t emotions involved, it was just stress release… But now, there are emotions, and there’s an attachment between them both. How can they work that out? That’s why they decided, mutually of course, that it’d have to end before it really started. 

Maybe they could work it out, if they both sat down and tried hard enough. The problem isn’t difficult to work through if they are honest with one another. But honesty would cost them dearly… To one it could cost a family, the other it could cost his flighty lifestyle. They both know that what they have is worth it… But they both realise that if they do that, they are finding themselves a partner and dedicating a life to one another.

For a few short moments they both thought this is how it will end… Silence… No one fighting to save it. Neither are brave enough to admit to the other just how important and significant they are together…

But as he continues to walk away, his footsteps echo like the beating of a drum announcing the ever-impending doom. The sounds never leave the others mind- hanging on to make him realise just what is happening, and so he panics. And that is when words are no longer out of his reach- instead they are tumbling from his mouth in an uncontrolled rush; he is there now- making a stand.

Those words are music to his ears. For once he is glad for the emotional outburst, and it is then that he turns to face him- maybe just to hear him out or maybe just because he doesn’t want to leave. But his words wash over him in a sweet, soothing harmony.

He can see that the elders face is softening. There is no longer the pain dominating his features- there is no longer a fire of rage burning in his brown eyes. It is replaced with a happiness- that illuminates his whole persona, and his eyes are finally like gateways into her soul.

But it only lasts for a split second.

As quickly as it has come- it has gone. He almost swears that it could have been a figment of his imagination. His face hardens- his barriers rebuild- he has lost all his opportunities. He has cocooned himself in once more- protecting himself from the world.

If this has been a movie- this wouldn’t have happened- it would have been simple. This would be the moment they’d be together, in one another’s arms and there would be a kiss, everything would be right in the world. But alas, it was not so. This was not going to be a happy ending- because reality has no happy endings.

He sighs, resigning all hope; sometimes there was no point in clinging on. He watches as the other turns- walking away once more.

It was then that they both realise that something special- unique almost- has escaped their grasps. And the further Nick walks away, the more the realisation dawns upon them both:

 
This was the way it was meant to be

 

Comments

[strifechaos.livejournal.com]

You just broke my heart. That was so sad, I was so hopeful at the end and then the hurtful realms of reality dashed that hope. *sighs* Lovely work.

[gregisamazing.livejournal.com]

Sorry, should of warned about the unhappy ending huh? Thanks for the review!

[abbynormalitis.livejournal.com]

Ouch. I hurt now. *goes to cry in a corner* XD Fuck fairytales I want my happy ending damnit. I'm having a love/hate relationship with this fic now. I like it 'cause of how well you portrait their emotions, the hesitancy lasting a bit too long giving way to stubborn pride. But then...the angstt. Working together's gunna be a bitch now D:/<3

[gregisamazing.livejournal.com]

Uh... Thanks... Sorry about hurting you... Wasn't my intention... Thanks for reviewing all the same!