Fic for anti-block challenge. I love challenges.

[rabidfan.livejournal.com]

For the CSI Anti-Block Challenge #23.  “Moving”

Pairing:  Nick/Greg

Rating: PG_13 for death and suicide talk.

Summary:  “Grave Danger” didn’t really end the way it was portrayed on T.V.  Here is how it really ended.  Everything else has been a fantasy.

 

“Moving On”

 

Everyone said he needed to move on.  Move past the pain, put his life back on track.  So many clichés, it made his head hurt.  How was he supposed to forget?  How could he let the pain go?  The pain was the only thing left that was real.  He wanted to keep it, it was little enough.

 

Nick had still been warm when they dug him up.  Still warm. 

 

Greg didn’t remember losing it.  He’d heard snippets of conversation about it.  They talked about it when they thought he wasn’t listening.  He didn’t remember the screams.  He didn’t remember Grissom pulling him off Nick…pulling him out of the tomb that had held his love for too long. 

 

He had still been warm.

 

They couldn’t have been more than thirty minutes too late.  Just thirty.  The bullet had ruined his beautiful profile.  Greg hadn’t known, not really known, how a 9mm slug could alter the features of a face it traveled through.  He’d never forget now.

 

Grissom had held him for a long time that night.  He’d been afraid to let him go, he’d said.  It didn’t matter.  Greg was still in that hole.  He would always be there now.  It didn’t matter where they moved him, how they held him.

 

He had still been warm.

 

“I was afraid we’d end up burying two.”  Catherine was relieved that he seemed to be doing better.  He’d eat what they put in front of him.  He closed his eyes when they asked him to try to sleep.  If it gave them peace, it was little enough to do.  They all hurt too.  They had all been shocked, horrified by what was found below that hard ground. 

 

He had still been warm.

 

Greg could taste the coppery tang of his blood.  Washed away so long ago, but still on his tongue.  That was okay.  He could move past this, in his own way.  Soon, he wouldn’t think about it anymore.  Soon, it wouldn’t hurt to breathe. 

 

He would make sure that they didn’t have to find him still warm.  He would do that for them.  It was little enough.

Comments

[fuqmeharry.livejournal.com]

man this broke my heart. i could imagine how thatd feel.
shit

[rabidfan.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry...I had a bad day and took it out on Nick and Greg. My bad.

[animefanboy0110.livejournal.com]

*is in tears* That was so sad...great job *blows nose*

[rabidfan.livejournal.com]

*hands more tissue* Thanks.

[io-2.livejournal.com]

My fist thought: Holy shit, NOOO!
I liked the repeated motive and Gregs conclusion that they shouldn't find him warm after his suicide.
Hope tomorrow will be a good day for you!

[rabidfan.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

[indelibility.livejournal.com]

Poor Greg. So sad~~ they suffer so much in the series ¬¬;;; I loved how this fic moved. I love how sweet Greg is no matter what :(

[rabidfan.livejournal.com]

Greg is my favorite...but even he is not above Depressed Cheri With A Keyboard.

[sixdifferentway.livejournal.com]

OMG. So sad. But so beautiful.

[rabidfan.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

[psyko-kittie.livejournal.com]

Heartbreakingly beautiful! :whimpers: So sad, poor Greg... :(

[rabidfan.livejournal.com]

*pats* there, there. It's fic...tomorrow someone will have happy Greg fic, and all will be well!

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

ouch

[rabidfan.livejournal.com]

Yeah.

[wojo62.livejournal.com]

You made me cry... thank you.

[rabidfan.livejournal.com]

You're welcome? (Wojo, honey...we don't usually thank people for making us cry! But I'm glad you were moved. It was cathartic to write about death...as scary as that sounds.)

[gregisamazing.livejournal.com]

Wow... That was heartbreaking... And really moving... Dang, you got me to cry again... That's twice in three days- I don't cry this much ever! *Sniffles*

[rabidfan.livejournal.com]

::makes note to buy more tissue::

Thanks for the compliments...they are sweet.