More fic, because I'm twisted that way

[rabidfan.livejournal.com]

This was originally written for the Only_Nicky “Broken Hearted” challenge

 

“Please”

Nick and Greg

PG

 

It was frightening how quickly something so wonderful had turned into a nightmare.  Nick knew it was his fault.  He knew that, but he didn’t know how to fix it.  It had been his idea to start the relationship with Greg, even though he’d never quite gotten around to telling his parents he preferred men.  He’d always thought he’d sit them down on one of his infrequent visits to Texas.  But the years passed and instead of the words getting easier to say, they glued tighter to his tongue.

 

He’d never been as happy as he had been those months with Greg.  He’d laughed more, lived more than in all the years gone before.  But, he’d ruined things with Greg, like he had with everyone he’d begun a relationship with.  His fears and insecurities had cost him far too much this time.  Nick didn’t really know if he could recover from this.

 

Greg had wanted to make this trip with him.  He’d wanted to see where Nick had grown up and meet some of the people who had had a hand in shaping him into the man he was.  Of course, Nick had refused.  He’d had too.  Greg hadn’t understood, in fact he’d been deeply hurt.  Nick tried to explain, and that’s when things went spectacularly wrong.

 

He’d inferred that Greg’s parents accepted his life-style choices because they were still hippie-dippie types, still getting high and not concerned about Greg enough to care one way or the other.  Of course, he’d been totally out of line.  The Sanders were solid, good people who were crazy about their only child.  He’d then gone from bad to worse by saying that one look at Greg would be enough for Nick’s dad to know he was a fag.  He’d used that awful word, thrown it in Greg’s face like a slap.

 

When Greg had recovered enough to speak, all he had said was goodbye.

 

So here he sat, under the concerned scrutiny of his parents, unable to tell them why he was crying.  Unable to tell them what he’d lost to his own stupidity.  It was stupid.  Most of his friends, co-workers, even most of his family knew.  Why couldn’t he share that vital part of himself with his folks?  Why couldn’t he stop crying?

 

“Who’s the guy that hurt you like this?”

 

Did his father just say what he thought he said?

 

“Don’t look so shocked.  I’m a judge; your mother has a law degree.  We are reasonably smart.  We took a page from your book and followed the evidence.  You’re thirty-seven, attractive, intelligent, have a good job and charming manners, yet you’ve never had a serious relationship with a woman.  Come on, how hard do you think we had to work to figure it out?  So.  Who’s the guy that broke your heart?”

 

“Me.”  A masterpiece of coherence.  It was all he could manage.

 

“What’s his name?”  Of course his mom would want details.  That’s just how moms are.

 

“Greg.”

 

“From the lab?  The pretty one with the hair?” 

 

Nick almost smiled at the description.  Well, he was pretty.  “Yeah.”

 

“Have you called him?  Once he knows how miserable you are, I’m sure he’ll accept your apology.”

 

Nick snorted.  “No, I don’t think so, mom.  Not this time.”

 

“Have you called him?”  She patiently asked again.  “If he picks up, you’ve got a chance.  If you don’t try, how important is he going to believe he is to you?  Call.”  They rose to give him some privacy.

 

Taking out his phone, Nick hit the speed dial.  “Please, please, please.”

 

“Hello.”

 

“I’m so glad you picked up, G.  Can we talk?”

 

“What about?”

 

“Let me start by saying that I love you, I know I’m an ass, and I’m so, so sorry that I hurt you.  I love you, and I want to fix this, if you’ll give me a chance.”

 

“I’m listening.”

 

For the first time all week Nick felt a glimmer of hope breaking through the aching hole in his chest. Maybe, just maybe he hadn’t ruined things beyond repair.

 

“I want you to come to Texas…”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Comments

[wojo62.livejournal.com]

Nick sure has his problems. Well it's nice to read a fic where Nick's parents aren't homphobic and don't disown their son at the drop of a hat.

[rabidfan.livejournal.com]

I never believe that anybodies parents could be so cold. I know that is naive of me, but it's my happy place and I can make it any way I want!

Thanks for reading.

[(Anonymous)]

Read if you want? When I see your name - I want! You are rapidly becoming one of my favorite authors :-) This was amzing. May I be so bold as to point out a little typo? You used "past" instead of passed to show a passage of time. Sorry, just the teacher in me refusing to shut her mouth!! I hope I don't offend you because your stories how so much heart-felt emotion. Any chance of continuing this story?

[rabidfan.livejournal.com]

:) fixed it!

[(Anonymous)]

point out a typo and make one yourself - ha! Should have read "your stories have so much..." Duh!!

[rabidfan.livejournal.com]

Thanks...I've only written a few things, after reading others amazing stuff for years, so it's gratifying to have people like what I do.

(Anybody else flashing to Sally Field?)

[piratekitten.livejournal.com]

You know, I intially passed this up because of your lj-cut. Luckily, I decided to come back and read it, but honestly, if someone thinks they're not a good writer and flatout says so? I'm not going to give them a chance and read their stuff, even if it's the most mind-blowing or sweetest thing I'll ever read.

In this case, I'm glad I did. You've got either an awesome stand-alone fic here; or, if you choose to go that route, the start of a fairly engrossing ongoing fic.

[rabidfan.livejournal.com]

Why because of the cut? It didn't say anything bad about me. I'm really a great person, I'm just to modest to point it out.

[snarkyperson.livejournal.com]

This is completely irrelevant to your post, but where did you get your icon? Can I steal borrow it? :)

[rabidfan.livejournal.com]

Steal away!!! I got it off a fan girl site for Eric Szmanda. They just have pages of pictures, and this was one.

[lspen.livejournal.com]

I always read your fics. You should know that by now. i love this. Sometimes I think Nick just needs to get out of his own way. lol. You write wonderful angst. I have enjoyed every fic I have read of yours.

Did I mention that As much as I love your angst, I adore your Nick and Greg love.........

lori

[rabidfan.livejournal.com]

I have a fan???? My very own fan???? Can I take you home and keep you forever???

Thanks for reading. I'm actually gaining a little confidence in my writing. I don't expect to be terrific. I'm sort of striving for journeyman status.

[anchordown.livejournal.com]

I love your fic! You've done great work. This was wonderful....would even love to see it continued. But I have to agree with some of the above sentiments - read if you want to? You need to demand that people read your stories, yo! ;)

[rabidfan.livejournal.com]

No, see I'm not all that sure I want to start THAT!!! I love it when people want to read my stuff...(like I've been producing so much!) but it's a free world, read or don't. It's really all up to you. (As she silently begs "read me, read me, please read me!")

I am glad you like my stories...and as Peter won't be home for two and a half months, I'll probably write more!

[serenity151979.livejournal.com]

Really glad that you decided to post this in here (I knew you'd get a better response here ;b )

[rabidfan.livejournal.com]

thanks for your support! :)