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Title: So Beautiful.
Chapter: Six.
Pairing: Nick/Greg
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: None, really.
Genre: Angst. Romance. Post-Ep.
Summary: Post ep for Feeling the Heat. Greg's angst about the case and the events afterwards. 

The first shift back at work, Greg was apprehensive to say the least. He had been avoiding Nick successfully for almost an entire week, dodging phone calls and more or less keeping completely to himself except for the rare occasions when he left his hotel room in search of an apartment. Amelia had gone back to day-care, and while Greg had trouble letting go of her after an entire week together, he knew that he needed to get back to work to earn some money for them to live on.

 

It was a slow shift, or what was considered a slow shift at the Las Vegas crime lab. Not many new cases were coming through, which left Greg to sort through the backlog of DNA that was greeting him when he walked through the glass doors.

 

"Hey Greg!" A shout from out in the hallway caused him to turn around, and he smiled as Sara walked into the lab. "Where have you been?"

"Just took some time off. Had some things that I needed to sort out." Greg hated lying to his co-workers, but since Nick had sworn him to secrecy about Amelia and their relationship, it became second nature to him. "How has the lab coped without me?"

"The other DNA techs don't hold a candle to you, you know that. Are you okay?"

"Yeah, I'm fine. Or I will be fine."

"Okay, well you know where to find me if you ever need to talk." She threw him another smile before exiting the lab and wandering off down the hallway. Greg wished so badly that he could tell her exactly what was wrong; he wished that he could talk to anyone about what was going through his mind. But he hadn't even told his parents about him and Nick breaking up. He knew that his mother would be on the first flight out to Vegas and he wasn't ready to deal with her being a doting mother or grandmother just yet. Not until he could figure out exactly what he was going to do.

The door to the lab opening once again brought him back into reality, and his eyes snapped up to see the one person he had been fervently avoiding since the beginning of the shift. When their eyes locked together, neither had the courage to say what they needed to, or anything at all, until Greg pulled his eyes away from Nick’s and busied himself with the workload on his bench.

 

“Look at me.”

”No. I don’t have anything of yours to process, Nick. Why are you here?” A heavy sigh followed and Greg could feel himself becoming more and more deflated as the seconds rolled over.

 

“You’ve been avoiding me.”

”I know.”

”We need to talk.”

”No, okay! Nick, I am so god damn sick of talking. Talking never gets us anywhere.” Greg stopped processing for a moment, laying his palms flat on the bench and shaking his head slightly.

 

“I need to see her, Greg.”

”I’m sorry, what?” He had no intention of giving in to whatever Nick wanted. Now it was all about the mind games and the manipulation. Greg refused to play Mr. Nice Guy anymore. “Who do you need to see, exactly?”

”Don’t do this. It isn’t fair.”

“No, you know what isn’t fair?” Greg snapped, glaring at Nick. “What’s not fair is that our daughter will grow up thinking that you’re ashamed of her.”

 

“I’m not ashamed of her, Greg. I’m – “

”Ashamed of me, Yeah, I got that thanks.”

 

“Stop it.”

”Get out of my lab, Nick.” Greg was tired of fighting like this, and definitely didn’t want to fight like this in a lab that was surrounded completely by glass. He knew that at any moment somebody could walk in and would wonder why there was so much tension between the two, who for all intensive purposes were simply colleagues and nothing else.

 

“Not until you tell me that I can see her.”

 

“Get out.”

 

Slamming one hand down on the bench and grabbing Greg by the shirt with the other, Nick thrust their faces together and hissed through his teeth.

”Do you honestly think I’ll let you get away with this?” Venom dripped from every word that shot out of Nick’s mouth, and Greg found himself for the first time in a long while, completely speechless. He pushed Nick away hard enough for him to bash into the bench behind them.

 

“Don’t touch me. You don’t have a right to touch me anymore.”

”I’ll fight for her, you know.” Verbal and physical threats meant nothing to Greg. He knew that when it came down to it, Amelia was his daughter and there was no judge in the state that would take her away from him. With a new found sense of confidence, Greg smirked and sneered back.

 

“I thought you were tired of fighting?”

 

This only served to anger Nick further, but Greg was fairly certain that Nick would never hurt him, much less start a fist-fight with him in the middle of the DNA lab.

 

“Do you have any idea how powerful my father is, Greg?”

 

“Oh, do you mean the father who still thinks that his little Nicky is straight?” Greg quipped, watching as Nick’s face paled and his body relaxed slightly, a sign of admitting defeat. But Greg knew he couldn’t just leave it there. He lowered his voice to an almost seductive level and leant in closer to Nick. “The father who doesn’t know how your body writhes under my fingertips?”

 

“Greg, don’t.” Nick warned him half-heartedly, but he had already given up.

 

“The father who doesn’t know about how night after night you begged me to go harder, faster, deeper?”

”Fuck you.” Nick spat, turning to walk away before Greg’s voice softened and he spoke again.

”Or do you mean the father who doesn’t know about the first time you held Amelia. About how the world stopped moving for a few brief seconds and nothing else existed.”

 

The silence between the two suddenly became deafening, and when Nick turned around to face him once again, Greg noticed a tear in the corner of his eye. Nick was never really one for crying, or expressing his emotions in a typical way. Emotion usually had to be dragged out of him, and Greg found this rare moment of honesty to be heartbreaking.

 

“I need her.” He whispered, blinking back the tear. He wasn’t about to let Greg see him cry.

 

Greg scoffed and turned away from Nick, going back to what he had been doing. He wasn’t really paying attention to his work, but he could no longer look at the anguish on Nick’s face without feeling the guilt tearing him a new heart.

 

“No you don’t. You want me to believe that you need her, but you’ve never really needed anyone but yourself Nick.”

 

“That’s not true!” Nick yelled abruptly, before lowering his voice so as not to alarm people walking past. “I needed you. I –“

”You what?” Greg was whispering too, for no other reason than it seemed like the kind of conversation that was better in secret.

 

“I still do.”

”Liar.”

 

“What do I have to do to make you believe me, Greg?”

 

“You already know the answer to that.”

Comments

[heartagram-lala.livejournal.com]

the angst is so hot! so is the fighting lol.

cant wait for the make-up though haha, and for eveyrone to find out about amelia... coz we all know nick will tell everyone about him and greg and amelia hehe.

[inflowers.livejournal.com]

haha, you sound like my parents. my dad was standing over my shoulder reading it before and he's like "WHENS HE GOING TO TELL EVERYONE?!" so ridiculously embarassing. so maybe i'll drag it out a bit longer just to make you all suffer. :)
i'm glad you liking the angst. i can't stop writing it, everytime i go to make them make-up i just seem to write more arguing!

[heartagram-lala.livejournal.com]

dude if my parents got a whif of any of my fanfic i'd die... coz its mostly smut and im 17, ROFL.

i'm with ur dad on this one, haha, TELL THEM NICKY!!!

still angry hot sex is always good... HAHA

[inflowers.livejournal.com]

haha, i'd only ever let my parents read this one cos its based on them. i'd die if they read more of my uh, how to put this, explicit stuff.

thats why i don't know if i'll ever write hot sex into this story, cos my dads want to read it all when its done and that would just be way too mortifying!!

[heartagram-lala.livejournal.com]

omg, you have two dads??? thats so awesome!!!

[inflowers.livejournal.com]

haha. yeah, i mentioned it in the another one of my posts with this story about how this is kind of based off how i came into existence. i think it was with chapter four.
and i think it's pretty awesome too! haha.

[heartagram-lala.livejournal.com]

i dont remember that lol, bad me.

but seriously thats awesome!!! and i luv that this is based on them, man it would have been tense for a while, rofl.

just out of interest, do you call them both dad? and do they both come when u call dad? that would be amusing/annoying at times lol

[inflowers.livejournal.com]

for the record, i love how you guys reacted to me telling you all that i have two dads. i've had to put up with alot of shit (mostly from guys) for it over the years, but you've all been so sweet! hehe.

it's not entirely based on them. my biological dad (who in this story i guess is greg) and my other dad had me when they were really young and it caused alot of tension in their relationship and when i was 6 months old they broke up. but they got their happily ever after eventually.

and yeah, i do call them both dad. when i was younger it was dad and daddy, but it kind of just morphed into both of them being dad. and when i call dad, whichever one is closest comes first and if its not that one i'm talking about i'll be like "no, other one." haha. it is amusing/annoying, but hey! its life. :)

[heartagram-lala.livejournal.com]

guys can be pricks, i think its awesome u have two dads!

happily ever afters are good!!!

"no the other one" thats classic, rofl.

btw out of interest, again, do you know ur biological mother? and u dont have to answer these if u dont want, im just really interested

[inflowers.livejournal.com]

guys can be pricks. for an assignment, i had to write an article about the people i admire the most (i know, my teachers are so freaking lame.) and i wrote alot about my parents and how it's affected my relationship with guys. if you'd like, i can find what i wrote and type it out for you to read. maybe might give you more insight into what its like having two dads, if you're interested. :)

i know who she is, and i have met her, but she's not in my life. not because she's done anything wrong or anything, just because it worked out this way.

[heartagram-lala.livejournal.com]

that would be awesome, but if you dont have the time thats kool, lol. dont want to impose myself, rofl.

thats kool, i guess im so interested because its something that seems so far out there if that makes sense, and something i dunno how i would deal with. i mean as you havent known any different it would seem normal, and im not saying its not normal, its just that i having hetrosexual parents find it hard to relate to, which is why im so interested lol. i think its awesome though haha. i mean the nicest guys are always gay guys, which sucks for straight gurls like me, ROFL.

i think ur really lucky!!!

[inflowers.livejournal.com]

it's no trouble at all, trust me. i think it's really sweet that you're so interested!

i understand what you're saying, it's not a conventional family. we've always maintained that, but at the same time we've maintained that we love each other as much as any other family so it doesn't really matter. but just like it would be hard for you to relate to having two fathers or having homosexual parents, i have no idea how to relate to all my friends who all have a mum and a dad. or who have at least HAD a mum and a dad.
i am lucky. not just because my parents are gay, but because they love me and they love each other. i think that's enough to make anyone feel lucky.
:)

[heartagram-lala.livejournal.com]

i am lucky. not just because my parents are gay, but because they love me and they love each other. i think that's enough to make anyone feel lucky.
:)
i agree totally!

it's no trouble at all, trust me. i think it's really sweet that you're so interested!
woot awesomness!!!

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There you go. :) Sorry if there are any spelling or grammar errors, I typed it up pretty fast. Haha.

[heartagram-lala.livejournal.com]

its all good, off to read

[kate-mct.livejournal.com]

Go Greggo! Love this story!

[tanisafan.livejournal.com]

I'm loving this story more with every chapter. Yay, the angst! Yay, the Unresolved Tension!
Also, it's freaking awesome that your dad(s) are reading over your shoulder and getting all hyper about it, hah! I'll probably never ever let my parents read the fanfic. Purple-cheeked is not a good color on me, hehe.

But seriously, this is really great, can't wait for the happy ending ;) *hint hint*.

[inflowers.livejournal.com]

Oh, it takes alot for my dads to embarass me. Lord knows they've tried it!

But thanks, I'm glad you're enjoying this!

[lspen.livejournal.com]

I am really loving this fic. The more the angst, the better the make-up will be. Poor nick, still needing the approval of others to be happy. I am so proud of Greg for standing his ground. For some reason, I have always in my fantasies seen Greg has the stronger emotional half of the dou.

Thanks for sharing this and your family with us. Happy New Year.

Lori