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Because I am in a spammy mood, you get a Nick poem that might be a prequel to a fic, and then later you'll get the second part ~~that everybody has been waiting for, biting their nails~~ of Vainglorius.

Unpure
by Tali

spoilers for Overload. implies rape.

I stared at the door, in the dark
I stared at the door, with invisible marks
When you finally came home, you didn't believe me
When you finally came home, you basically ignored me
I started to cry, to show I wasn't okay
I started to cry, but a firm slap reminded me

"Boys don't cry."

But I couldn't help it, and cried anyway
I couldn't help it, couldn't take the pain away
Boys don't cry, but most boys don't feel this way
Boys don't cry, but most boys are still safe and pure at the age of nine
She was supposed to be my babysitter, somebody I could trust
She was supposed to be my babysitter, not hurt me
I didn't know what was going to happen, I couldn't stop it
I didn't know what was going to happen, that I was going to be taken advantage of
So the years passed by, and we didn't speak of it
So the years passed by, but that didn't mean I still couldn't feel it
I tried to talk about it, tried to get some relief
I tried to talk about it, but seriously, I know now, you just didn't care
Maybe you did, but that's not enough
Maybe you did, but I will no longer try to act tough
You hurt me just as much, maybe even more then she did
You hurt me just as much, so don't look so surprised that I ran
Away from you, away from her
Away from memories, from everything I once knew

Guess what now?
I'm free, free as a bird.
Free to cry, free to be heard

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