nickngreg | The Note

TitleThe Note
Author: CSI_Whore
Pairing:Greg / Nick
Rating PG-13
Disclaimer: These characters do not belong to me, I am only borrowing them. CBS, Jerry B & the rest of the producers do.
Summary: Nick & Greg try to deal with the after effects of Grave Danger
Thank you to Fred_bear for being such a great Beta!

Chapter 1
Chapter 2

The door shut and Greg and Nick were once again looking at each other with tears in their eyes not knowing what to say.

"Hey Handsome." Greg says, almost convincingly, as he staggers over to the side of the bed.

"Hey." replies Nick, not knowing where to go from here.

Greg moves to the edge of the bed, Nick can smell the fresh scent of the body wash that he uses and it reminds him of home... Home… and of how things used to be... before he was stuck in a box for 24 hours. Before his life changed in an instant. If only he could take back all those "befores" and live in the then, instead of in the dreaded "after". But it seems that Nick's life is not fair, so into the "after" it is.

Nick sticks his hand out and clutches Greg's, squeezing it twice, as if to make sure that he was really standing next to him.

That soft and comforting gesture triggers something in the seemingly comatose Greg. He slumps down onto Nick and holds him gently, all the while tearfully whispering over and over in his ear..."I'm sorry... I'm so sorry. I wish it was me... I wish it was me," until he hears his lover say softly through the sobs, "I know babe, I know."

And, suddenly, as if the sight of Nick lying there so broken was a trigger, it all came rushing out, an confused ramble. "All I could think about is you, only you… They wouldn't let me in to see you at first, the guys, you know the guys… they said you… you needed to sleep and that I should go home and get some sleep... so Warrick and Cath got in the ambulance and came here, so I tried to go home and, but, couldn't sleep so came by and then the note, but didn't know what I was saying and I was so scared for you... I was... "

Nick cut his rambling boyfriend off with the brush of a finger against his lips and pulled him close to his chest. He needed to feel Greg's heart beating against his. He needed to smell his hair gel, he needed to breathe his lover in like life giving oxygen. He was so scared and had no idea what the future held, but Nick knew that it needed to have Greg in it.

Greg and Nick held the embrace for a long time. It wasn't until Nick's breathing became even and regular that Greg finally let him go. Easing out of the embrace, he continued to grasp Nick's hands in both of his, as if he were saying wedding vows with his sleeping friend. Sighing, Greg started to think about a song he heard on the radio on the way over to the hospital…

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Greg wanted so badly to be the one to help "fix" Nick. But how? He wondered to himself.

The door to Nick's room opened slowly and Greg turned to see who it was. He sees
Grissom leaning against the door, holding it open and motioning him to come out into the hall. Not wanting to wake Nick, Greg slowly places Nick's hands on the bed, tucks the sheets around his chest and turns towards the door.

Out in the hall Grissom looks at him knowingly.

"So, how long have you two been going out?" Grissom inquired.

Looking stunned, Greg asked, "Did you know before this?"

"Catherine had mentioned that you two were spending a lot of time out of work together and after seeing you here tonight, it just clicked." Grissom stated matter-of-factly.

"Oh," said Greg, not knowing what else to say. Feeling emotionally drained, it’s all he can do to look up at Grissom and shrug.

"Greg, do you need the night off? We can survive with just Sara, Sophia and I ... if you need to..." Grissom offered, stuttering somewhat.

Slowly shaking his head Greg replied, "No, I need the distraction..."

But before he could finish the sentence, screaming erupted from Nick's room. Greg and Grissom rush into the room to find Nick thrashing about in his bed, kicking at the covers and screaming in his sleep.

Warning Greg, Grissom tells him that they need to be careful to not startle Nick awake.
Walking over to the bed, Greg and Grissom speak in hushed tones, trying to get Nick to wake from his horrible dream. The dream that was actually his life a mere 20 hours ago. As they are soothing him, a nurse hurries in and tells them that they both need to go so that the doctor can check on him.

A sweaty and flushed Nick grabs at Greg's hand with fear in his eyes. "Please don't go," he whimpers.

The nurse gives a stern look at Greg and shakes her head no.

Greg squeezes Nick's hand and says calmly, "We will be just outside. You’re going to be okay. We’ll be back in a little while. The doctor just needs to check you over. I'll be right out side."

And with that, Greg reluctantly leaves his boyfriend and goes to the waiting room where Grissom is already seated.

TBC

Inspiration from:
Coldplay - "Fix You" 2005
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you…

Crossposted to: CSI_Slash, nickngreg, Oh_no_Nicky