My World Is Empty Without You, part three

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Title: My World Is Empty Without You, part 3

Author: Jaxson K.

Pairing: Nick/Greg

Rating: PG (mostly for language)

Disclaimer: I own nothing!

 

 

 

Greg felt lousy. Ever since he'd been home he'd been in a funk. He knew that he was going to have to try and do something about it, but this one was almost completely out of his hands. He knew that he was gonna have to go back to Vegas sooner or later because of his job, but he didn't exactly look forward to it. Just the idea made him kinda sad because of Nick. He missed Nick so much, but he knew that he couldn't just give in and keep things like they were.

 

Greg knew that Nick was a private man about some things, and he understood that to a point. Greg also knew that Nick wasn't sure about his sexuality for a long time, and that being with Greg was something new to Nick. Greg didn't understand so much on that point because he had always been comfortable with himself and his sexuality, and because of that, he didn't really care who knew.

 

It was because of this that he and Nick argued about them being open to the team. Nick wouldn't discuss his reasons why he wouldn't tell the team, and that bothered Greg to no end. Greg was so proud that Nick had wanted to be with him, and it really was a dream come true. But, the dream was becoming tainted by the fact that Nick sometimes acted like he was ashamed of Greg and that he didn't want anyone to know about them at all.

 

Greg knew that something had had to give. While he didn't push at Nick all the time, he made his displeasure known from time to time, and it played hell with their relationship. He got the feeling that he was Nick's 'dirty little secret', and that was something he wasn't gonna stand for. They argued over that a few times, and Greg got to the point where he'd had enough. All he wanted was to be able to share his happiness with the people he worked with, but if Nick was that ashamed, then Greg would leave. He didn't want Nick to be ashamed of him for any reason, but he also knew that whatever the reason was, Nick wasn't talking.

 

When they argued the last time, Greg knew the time had come for him to leave. He didn't want to, but he knew that he had to try and make Nick see that he was hurting more than just Greg's feelings. While Nick sat in the living room brooding, Greg went to pack. He called Grissom and told him that he had an emergency and that he would be in touch. He went out to wait for the cab, and when Nick realized that Greg was serious, he begged him not to go. As much as Greg wanted to give in, he knew he couldn't. If he did, Nick would never do anything about the situation. When the cab came, Greg had to force himself to be calm. As the cab drove away, Greg was glad that Nick couldn't see the tears flowing down his face.

 

In the three weeks he had been gone, he'd wanted to call Nick several times, but he didn't. He missed Nick so much until it hurt sometimes. He missed Nick's laugh, his comforting presence in bed at night, his unique smell, so many things. Greg knew that progress was gonna have to be made, but he didn't know how to get the process started. He was afraid that if too much more time passed, it might be too late.....

 

To be continued.....

 

Comments

[cmali.livejournal.com]

Great story!! I just read all three chapters and, now, I'm pouting. Stupid Nick, anyway. Great job, darlin!!

[recordplayer69.livejournal.com]

C'mon, Momma, don't pout...LOL It's gonna get better, I promise! Thank you so much for reading and commenting. Jaxson ;)

[burrollie.livejournal.com]

I love that you included a chapter with Greg's POV. I feel so bad for him. He doesn't even know yet that Nick called his mom. Poor Greg :(

Great chapter update!

[rustie73.livejournal.com]

That “dirty little secret” line was excellent. It really shows the depth of Greg’s despair.

Can’t wait to read more.