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Title: So Beautiful.
Chapter: Eight.
Pairing: Nick/Greg
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: None, really.
Genre: Angst. Romance. Post-Ep.
Summary: Post ep for Feeling the Heat. Greg's angst about the case and the events afterwards. 

”Did you think that I was just going to drop everything in my life to play cowboys and Indians with you on your farm, Nick?”

”It’s a ranch, Greg. Not a farm.”

 

“You say potato. Whatever, it doesn’t matter. The point is that I have a life Nick, I have a job and responsibilities as you constantly remind me. What makes you think that I’d be willing to put that on hold just for you?”

 

Greg had called Nick and told him to come to his apartment to discuss the email he had received. When he had arrived, it took all the strength in Greg’s body not to collapse into his arms and beg for them to be alright once again. But he stood his ground and politely invited Nick into his home, which he had spent all morning cleaning.

”This is … nice, G.”

”Thanks. It’s not much, but it’s home.”

 

“Yeah. Um …”

 

“She’s asleep, but you can see her.”

 

“Thanks.”

 

He watched as Nick walked into the makeshift nursery that Greg had put together for Amelia. It was nothing like the one at Nick’s house, but it served its purpose. Nick walked over to her crib and stared down at his daughter, smiling softly.

 

“She’s grown.”

 

“They tend to do that, yeah.”

 

“Can I…”

 

“She’s still your daughter, Nick. You don’t have to ask me if you can hold her.”

 

“Well according to you, she’s not my daughter anyway.”

”I was angry. She’ll always be your daughter.”

 

It took a lot for Greg to admit that to Nick. A part of him wanted to keep her away from him forever, because Greg believed that if Nick wasn’t going to admit to anybody that she was his, then he didn’t deserve her in his life. But Nick was right; he didn’t really have the guts to rip her away from him for good. Amelia deserved to have people in her life who loved her, and despite what he said, Greg knew that Nick adored Amelia in every way possible. She was the light in everything that he did, but he was just so internally conflicted that he wasn’t ready to share her.

 

After Nick had held his daughter for a few minutes, he put her back down to sleep and walked into the living room where he and Greg started to argue about Nick booking them flights to Texas.

 

“No, I’m not asking you to drop everything. I spoke to Grissom, I told him that there was a conference in Texas that I wanted to go to, and that I thought you could benefit from.”

 

“So you lied to him. Typical you, Nick. Can’t let anyone find the truth. Can’t let anyone see who you really are.” Greg scoffed. “Have you even told your parents that you’re going to see them?”

”Yeah, I told them this morning.”

”Let me guess, forgot to mention that you’d be bringing visitors?”

 

“You haven’t even let me explain it to you.”

 

“Then go ahead, I’m listening.” Greg took a seat on his couch and threw his feet onto the coffee table, resting his hands in his lap and staring up intently at Nick, who in turn sat in the chair across from him.

 

“I want to take you both to Texas to meet my parents. But before I take you to meet them, we need to work this out. Because I’m definitely not introducing you to my parents as my ex-boyfriend.”

 

“Is that what I am?”

”Well, I guess I just thought that since …” Nick paused and noticed the hurt look on Greg’s face. “It’s not what I want you to be, by any means. But you moved out, and we’ve barely spoken for about eight weeks. I just assumed…”

 

“Yeah, I mean … I know. That’s what I am. And that’s what you are. You’re my ex-boyfriend.” Greg reiterating it was more for his own benefit, to attempt to make himself believe it a little bit more. “But we’ve been through this. I don’t think we can fix it.”

 

“Greg, I’m making an effort. I’m giving you what you want; I’m telling you that I’ll introduce you to my parents. That I’ll tell them everything. Does this mean nothing to you?” Nick was getting visibly distressed as Greg’s nonchalance. It almost appeared to Nick that Greg couldn’t care less whether he introduced him to his parents or not.

”It’s not that. It means everything to me, but I think it’s too late to fix it.”

”Please don’t say that. I want them to meet you, the person who makes … made me so happy for so long. I want them to meet Amelia and to love her as much as your parents do.”

 

“I understand that. But I can’t meet your parents, Nick. There are too many unresolved issues between us; I can’t bring myself to toss them under the bridge just for the sake of a family get-together. It means so much to me that you’re willing to tell them the truth, but I can’t be a part of it. Not yet.”

 

“Don’t say that, I need you there with me when I tell them.” Nick was beginning to plead with Greg, the way he promised himself that he never would. But he was desperate to get Greg to come with him to Texas.

”No you don’t, you’ll be fine. But I want you to take Amelia with you. She deserves to know her grandparents, and they deserve a chance to meet her.”

”A few weeks ago you weren’t even willing to let me see her, and now you’re telling me to take her out of the state?” Nick was confused, and wasn’t afraid to show his confusion on his face.

“Well you’re right. She should have more grandparents than just mine. And it might not seem like it, but I’ve grown up a lot in the past couple of weeks. She’s my priority, Nick. It doesn’t matter what happens between you and I, it should be our job to give her the world. And that means her meeting your parents.”

 

“There’s nothing I can do to get you to come with us, is there.” It wasn’t so much of a question as a statement. Nick had once again been defeated by Greg and his stubborn side.

 

“No. I’m sorry.”

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a/n. i knoooowww. i'm sorry! i wanted him to go as well, but it just didn't happen like that. who knows, maybe there'll be some happiness next chapter? thanks for all the comments, you're all lovely!

Comments

[csi-sanders1129.livejournal.com]

Awwww.... -shoves Greg out door with Nick- Coe on, Greggo. Give him another chance!!!!


I hope you continue your rapid-fire updates and post chapter nine soon, looking forward to reading it!

[theboysgonehome.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I'm disappointed. But the part of me that loves the angst is glad there will be more of it. :)

[bflyw.livejournal.com]

You know, it wasn't so bad... that Greg wouldn't go I mean. Life isn't as easy, and this made it more real. But happy ending okay? Happy ending!

[lspen.livejournal.com]

I am still enjoying this. I can't blame Greg for not going. I think he is is right. They need to work their problems out. I know I wouldn't be so quick in trusting Nick right away. I like that Greg is allowing Nick to take the baby with him and not using the baby as a way to hurt Nick. I have faith in nick and Greg.

This is fabulous. The first thing I look for on the computer in the morning is an update to this fic.

Lori

[barush.livejournal.com]

well, I totally understand that Greg doesn't wanna go... But I'm kinda disappointed 'cause I wanted them to get together again...lol
but dagdrommer is right, the happy ending is the most important thing here...LOL
I love it, keep it up:)

[wojo62.livejournal.com]

I am not surprised that Greg refused to go but I was surprised that he allowed Nick to take Amilia with him. Whatever is best for the baby, Greg is a good guy.

[tanisafan.livejournal.com]

Yay for more rapid updates! And aw, even though I'm kinda sad that Greg said no to Nick's invitation, I'm hoping that everything will turn out for the best. It will... right? *puppy eyes*

Still love it, keep 'em coming ;).

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