Officially Scared
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nickngregTitle: Officially Scared
Chapter: I'm fine, chapter 7 out of 14
Author:![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
anmani
Pairing: Nick and Greg
Rating: NC-17
Genre: AU, Future-fic, established relationship, drama, angst, romance.
Warnings General spoilers for seasons 1-5.
Disclaimer: They belong to the CBS and not me.
Summary: Nick's night begins all perfect.
Beta:serenity151979
Previous chapters:
Officially scared, I know I am whipped, chapter 1
Officially scared, Tread carefull, chapter 2
Officially scared, Every shitty thing, chapter 3
Officially scared, The phone rings, chapter 4
Officially scared, He is the sun in my solar system, chapter 5
Officially scared, Await my call, chapter 6
A/N: The plot for this story was conceived when I’d seen about half of season 5 and only heard rumors about ‘Grave Danger’. Therefore I have marked it as an AU. Tina never happened, but many other things did. The story is set in 2011.
I also wanted to try and tell it from first person and present tense. Not my usual style and it has taken me 5 months to complete it. The POV will change for each chapter.
This is told by Nick:
“Good morning Sunshine.”
Hmm I love when he says Sunshine; that means he’s got a nice surprise for me.
“Good morning Sweetie.”
“Come on I’ve got a surprise for you, let’s go.”
I take his hand and he pulls me out of bed and I follow him.
“Where are we going?”
“Now if I told you it wouldn’t be a surprise would it Sunshine?”
“No that’s true.”
He has taken me to the Zoo. I love the Zoo, I love watching the animals and he knows that. My favorite is the bird house. There are so many strange birds and plants in here that I can stay here the whole day and just watch.
He watches too, but he sees the world differently. Where I just see the birds; he sees the color of the walls, the shape and state of every plant and all the animals present. When he is watching like that; he has no filter; he just takes it all in.
When he opens up like that his eyes shine in a unique way.
The first time he watched me like that I got scared, real scared from the intensity. But I was also flattered.
The hand sneaking into mine brings promise of more than just the surprise of going to the Zoo.
“Do you see the couple over there?”
I follow the way he’s pointing and there are two men over there. They are perhaps 5 years older than me, one has the build of Warrick but is Hispanic, and the other is shorter and chubby but Slavic in his features. They have two kids with them and they look like a happy family.
“Hmm, they look happy.”
“I think it is time that we have children.”
Bam, just like that he says it. I must be radiating happiness and I want to say so much.
“Y-yes.”
I have wanted children for so long now, but he has held back. I know it is a big commitment but others working night shift has done it before us. Heck I would love to be at home if it meant we could have children.
“Is that all you can say. I thought you wanted to?”
“I do, I do want this; more than anything. You’ve no idea how happy this makes me!”
“I think I do.”
He gives me his biggest smile and I melt on the spot. He returns his eyes to the exotic birds and points out a few details to me. But he knows me so well; he knows that I need time to process what he’s just said.
The issue of children has always been the main disagreement between us. I wanted them from the first time we kissed, but he didn’t. Too big a commitment, he would say.
How can we make time for children, when we barely have time for each other?
When we moved together he accepted low maintenance pets; so we got fish. After a year of me pestering him we got two cats. He chose them and named them of course.
So we got two grey Norwegian Forest cats named Hydrogen and Helium. At least he didn’t name them after some amino-acid or worse.
“They get to have regular people names right?”
With his goofy smile plastered across his face he turns to me.
“Of course. How basic do you want it? Adam and Eve?”
“No but no Sky or Blossom or chemical names.”
“Wouldn’t do that to any child of mine. I went to school with Vanilla and Cloud. They had hell with those names.”
“And here I thought that it was my generation that suffered the worst.”
We never really dwell on the fact that I’m four years older than him. So I’m rewarded with a light shove and laughter.
“Sunshine I have to go; there are a few things that I need to care of.”
“You can’t leave now; we need to talk about this.”
But he does leave. He leaves through a door I have never seen before and the birds and plants they slip out with him.
“Don’t go.”
“Don’t worry Sunshine I’ll come back and get you real soon. I just have to take care of a few things. I’ll see you later.”
The door closes after him and I’m all alone.
I’m all alone and handcuffed to a bed in a windowless room.
His presence was so real!
I smelled the plants.
I felt him shove me.
I felt his hand in mine.
This is beginning to really piss me off. It’s of course a lot easier being like this than in a coffin with fire ants. But I really hope that my colleagues don’t get to see me ‘live’ like they did then. It took me a long time to accept that their torture were almost as bad as my own.
How Greg was able to do it I have no idea.
But he was there for me. He was cheerful when I needed his happy face and he took the hard talks when they were needed.
Everybody else walked on eggshells and treated me with kid gloves. That nearly lost me the last part of my sanity.
Maybe I shouldn’t go there.
Maybe I should meditate.
Maybe I should stick to positive thinking.
If they have me on live feed; I need to show them that I’m fine.
I’m fine.
I’m fine.
I’m fine.
I’m fine.
I’m fine.
Chapter: I'm fine, chapter 7 out of 14
Author:
anmaniPairing: Nick and Greg
Rating: NC-17
Genre: AU, Future-fic, established relationship, drama, angst, romance.
Warnings General spoilers for seasons 1-5.
Disclaimer: They belong to the CBS and not me.
Summary: Nick's night begins all perfect.
Beta:
serenity151979Previous chapters:
Officially scared, I know I am whipped, chapter 1
Officially scared, Tread carefull, chapter 2
Officially scared, Every shitty thing, chapter 3
Officially scared, The phone rings, chapter 4
Officially scared, He is the sun in my solar system, chapter 5
Officially scared, Await my call, chapter 6
A/N: The plot for this story was conceived when I’d seen about half of season 5 and only heard rumors about ‘Grave Danger’. Therefore I have marked it as an AU. Tina never happened, but many other things did. The story is set in 2011.
I also wanted to try and tell it from first person and present tense. Not my usual style and it has taken me 5 months to complete it. The POV will change for each chapter.
This is told by Nick:
“Good morning Sunshine.”
Hmm I love when he says Sunshine; that means he’s got a nice surprise for me.
“Good morning Sweetie.”
“Come on I’ve got a surprise for you, let’s go.”
I take his hand and he pulls me out of bed and I follow him.
“Where are we going?”
“Now if I told you it wouldn’t be a surprise would it Sunshine?”
“No that’s true.”
He has taken me to the Zoo. I love the Zoo, I love watching the animals and he knows that. My favorite is the bird house. There are so many strange birds and plants in here that I can stay here the whole day and just watch.
He watches too, but he sees the world differently. Where I just see the birds; he sees the color of the walls, the shape and state of every plant and all the animals present. When he is watching like that; he has no filter; he just takes it all in.
When he opens up like that his eyes shine in a unique way.
The first time he watched me like that I got scared, real scared from the intensity. But I was also flattered.
The hand sneaking into mine brings promise of more than just the surprise of going to the Zoo.
“Do you see the couple over there?”
I follow the way he’s pointing and there are two men over there. They are perhaps 5 years older than me, one has the build of Warrick but is Hispanic, and the other is shorter and chubby but Slavic in his features. They have two kids with them and they look like a happy family.
“Hmm, they look happy.”
“I think it is time that we have children.”
Bam, just like that he says it. I must be radiating happiness and I want to say so much.
“Y-yes.”
I have wanted children for so long now, but he has held back. I know it is a big commitment but others working night shift has done it before us. Heck I would love to be at home if it meant we could have children.
“Is that all you can say. I thought you wanted to?”
“I do, I do want this; more than anything. You’ve no idea how happy this makes me!”
“I think I do.”
He gives me his biggest smile and I melt on the spot. He returns his eyes to the exotic birds and points out a few details to me. But he knows me so well; he knows that I need time to process what he’s just said.
The issue of children has always been the main disagreement between us. I wanted them from the first time we kissed, but he didn’t. Too big a commitment, he would say.
How can we make time for children, when we barely have time for each other?
When we moved together he accepted low maintenance pets; so we got fish. After a year of me pestering him we got two cats. He chose them and named them of course.
So we got two grey Norwegian Forest cats named Hydrogen and Helium. At least he didn’t name them after some amino-acid or worse.
“They get to have regular people names right?”
With his goofy smile plastered across his face he turns to me.
“Of course. How basic do you want it? Adam and Eve?”
“No but no Sky or Blossom or chemical names.”
“Wouldn’t do that to any child of mine. I went to school with Vanilla and Cloud. They had hell with those names.”
“And here I thought that it was my generation that suffered the worst.”
We never really dwell on the fact that I’m four years older than him. So I’m rewarded with a light shove and laughter.
“Sunshine I have to go; there are a few things that I need to care of.”
“You can’t leave now; we need to talk about this.”
But he does leave. He leaves through a door I have never seen before and the birds and plants they slip out with him.
“Don’t go.”
“Don’t worry Sunshine I’ll come back and get you real soon. I just have to take care of a few things. I’ll see you later.”
The door closes after him and I’m all alone.
I’m all alone and handcuffed to a bed in a windowless room.
His presence was so real!
I smelled the plants.
I felt him shove me.
I felt his hand in mine.
This is beginning to really piss me off. It’s of course a lot easier being like this than in a coffin with fire ants. But I really hope that my colleagues don’t get to see me ‘live’ like they did then. It took me a long time to accept that their torture were almost as bad as my own.
How Greg was able to do it I have no idea.
But he was there for me. He was cheerful when I needed his happy face and he took the hard talks when they were needed.
Everybody else walked on eggshells and treated me with kid gloves. That nearly lost me the last part of my sanity.
Maybe I shouldn’t go there.
Maybe I should meditate.
Maybe I should stick to positive thinking.
If they have me on live feed; I need to show them that I’m fine.
I’m fine.
I’m fine.
I’m fine.
I’m fine.
I’m fine.
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